When does all of that become "sports" and trying to be good at something? I have never really had the competitive spirit, except sometimes as a spectator. I would like to be good at some sports-type activity, but it seems I never wanted it badly enough to work hard enough. And I guess I am okay with that.
I didn't like softball as a kid. I liked swimming but beyond being an average swimmer for fun, I never aspired to take it to another level. I've enjoyed bike riding in my life, but besides a period of time in the Bay Area when I would go for 20-25 mile rides, it was never something I wanted to pursue as a sport. I liked tennis well enough to take some lessons. That fell by the wayside too. I took a windsurfing class and got a certification. It was hard and a lot of effort for not enough fun....at least for me. I never went again. I went through a scuba diving course and the necessary dives in Monterey Bay (where the water is 55 degrees year round). I was certified and bought some gear. I never went scuba diving again. In my 20's and 30's, I did some snow skiing with friends. We did trips to Utah and Tahoe and other places. It was very social. But I had a little fear of the downhill speeds and couldn't get past the basics to be very good at it. Again, a lot of gear and a lot of effort for something I didn't love.
I did a lot of hiking and backpacking when I lived in Arizona. I always enjoyed that, even when it was really hard. I'm not sure it's a sport but it was a very healthy thing to be involved with. With my boyfriend at the time, we also did river rafting and I tried kayaking. I went ATV riding with friends once or twice. I had a wreck and feel traumatized to this day about going off the edge of that downhill road.
Other things I tried? Volleyball. Archery, in high school. Bowling. Fencing, in college. I tried to jog. Definitely not for me.
Sounds like a long list when you write it all down. And it brings me to horseback riding. I loved riding horses when I was a young girl. I still love riding horses. And I take lessons to try to improve because I want to be a better rider and feel that sense of accomplishment. I don't aspire to show my horse and I also don't aspire to be a great Grand Prix rider. But I aspire to be better and better and more confident than I am today. That is a process like any sport, and it takes time and commitment. So maybe I've finally found it. Or maybe it was there all along. I absolutely love horses and they fill a part of my soul, plain and simple. Maybe I just needed a sport that involved a living/breathing animal with a personality instead of a piece of equipment.
|Summer of 1969|
|Summer of 2010|