I've come to a fork in the road over a friendship. When two people don't sit down and have honest conversations for a long time, feelings fester and can reach a boiling point. I was blindsided and verbally attacked yesterday morning and spent the rest of the day reeling from it. Even though she apologized and hugged me and told me she loved me, the words and the whole incident have cut pretty deep. I can forgive but not forget, I can make the effort to heal my wounds for the sake of my happiness, but I may just be at a point in my life where I don't accept that and walk away. I'm just not sure.
Just as that incident ended, an amazing woman came to do body work on my horse. She has an energy and healing spirit that is unmatched. She is one of those people with a special gift that cannot be described. She gave me a big hug and a few words to help me through, and it was surely what saved me from getting in my truck and heading down the road at that very emotional moment.
And tonight my sweetheart will be home after being away for about 10 days. With my house being torn up next Monday, I need a few days of soulful healing. And with time, I will make the right decision.
Thanks for listening.